“You used to be so pretty when you were thinner, if you just lose the weight…” : loseit
I’m so in poor health of listening to that. I feel folks suppose it’s a praise/motivational but it surely hurts like hell. I comprehend it’s true. In highschool I weighed about 145 and now I’m 179, down from 196. I used to be actually lovable. I’m 21 now, fats, and basically getting uglier. The years of bulimia have stuck up with me and a few of my tooth have chipped and an opening has shaped between my entrance two. When I used to be 16/17 I had an enormous drug drawback, which I will be able to characteristic to staying skinny. On the uncommon instance that I did devour I ate like SHIT. It’s so arduous realizing that I used to be extra sexy when my existence was once a residing hell. I used to be lately dumped for being “too fat and ugly”. He mentioned that I had the attainable to be scorching, however that it was once too arduous for him to be with me at the moment. He mentioned I used to be disgusting and “look and me and then look at you, it just doesn’t make sense.” It just is going on and on. He mentioned that my persona is superb and I’m the highest particular person he’s ever met, however I’m just too unsightly. It sounds so cliche it doesn’t even sound actual. I do know that he was once abusive and there’s one thing actually improper with him, however his phrases nonetheless harm. I used to be beginning to construct my self-worth once more, however now it’s overwhelmed. My mother instructed me the what’s in the identify the different day. It’s 3am and I think so defeated.